Heavy

By: Abigail Summers

There is a weight on my chest.

It’s the kind of heavy that makes your stomach hurt, causes your shoulders to ache, and your knees to buckle. There’s a liar in my ear, telling me that I don’t deserve anything less than what is already more than I can handle

It is easy to say, “Why don’t you put the weight down?” Or “Why wouldn’t you ask for help to carry it?”

Those questions seem like simple solutions.

The problem with guilt is; it’s too much for us to carry, but we choose to pick it up. We live weighed down by the burden of our choices, our past, and our wrongdoings.

The Bible tells a story of a woman in the book of John chapter 8:1-1 who was caught in her sin. We aren’t even given her name. She is just “The woman caught in the act of adultery.” The religious leaders brought her in front of a crowd in front of Jesus, meaning for it to be a trap.

“The law of Moses says that are to stone this woman. What do you say?”

Jesus didn’t respond at first. He started writing with his finger in the sand. The leaders were persistent with their question. Jesus gave them an answer.

“Let anyone who is without sin throw the first stone at her.”

I wonder if she was trying to hold herself together, or if tears were streaming down her face? This woman whose identity and fate rested on the basis of her sin, and what this man had said.

“At this those who had heard began to go away… until there was only Jesus left.”

I imagine the relief she felt, as the crowd began to walk away one by one.

I can imagine her standing there in shame, trying to look everywhere but towards the only man that was left. I picture her trembling as he spoke to her

“Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”

“No, one sir.”

“Then neither do I condemn you, go now and leave your life of sin.”

Can you imagine the relief?

Standing face to face with perfection. Perfection that looked at her imperfection and sin, then told her that her sin did not condemn her to death?

Do you think she left the temple and held onto her identity as an adulterous woman, or do you think she was filled with joy because she had not been condemned?

“God did not send his son to condemn the world but to save it. ” -John 3: 17

When the rest of the world calls us by our sin, God looks at us and sees who we really are.

He knit us together before we were born, and he planned out the best for our lives (Psalms 139 : 13, Jerimiah 29 :11)

“If we confess our sin he is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

(1 John 1: 9)

Why do we let our identity rest in something that Christ has already forgiven?

We are not our sin.

Jesus died and took on the weight of our sin. How thankful I am that he is strong enough to take on all of it.

When Jesus looks at you he sees it all, he sees everything that we are holding onto, he sees all the hurt, and every wrong choice.

He doesn’t want you to live hauling that around. We are not strong enough, but he is.

Will you let him take the weight of it?

2 thoughts on “Heavy

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s